Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Sometimes, it's all about the swag.....

.....and sometimes it's about the accomplishment.

Today, in my 5k training program, we received our t-shirts. The excuse I gave myself for attending was the shirt distribution. Actually, it was so I could get my run in. I enjoy running. I enjoy running with others. I don't stop, even when I want to, because I know I got this. I can do it. It's hard. I'm not the speediest, but I will go the duration and complete the task I have assigned myself.

Today, I fell. I wanted to stop after that. My knee was sore. I bit my lip and it was swollen and bleeding. I was embarrassed, mortified.  The coach running with me asked if I was okay, asked about my knees, pointed out where I was bleeding, made sure I drank some water, then asked if I wanted to run. My answer was no.  She walked with me for a minute, then said she was going to run. I walked behind her for a minute, then recommenced my usual shuffle/run.  We completed the 3.1 miles. Aside from my brief walk, I ran the entire time.

I now know I can do this, since I have already done it once.  I won't be the fastest, but I will finish, and I will do my best.  My time to beat is 50 minutes.

I got this.

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Central Park Hoodie


I don't think these pictures do it justice. The color is a lovely oatmeal. The wool is soft, and it sheds just a little.  It's long enough to cover her behind (I hope). I hope it fits and I hope she likes it ��

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Insomnia is NOT my friend.......

.......although we DO seem to have a serious relationship going........

Friday, July 13, 2012

Life in Abq

Well, I have been here in Abq for 6 mos. I have made and continue to make friends, mostly through work. My habits haven't changed much. I still don't go out and I have been staying pretty close to home. Haven't been knitting much either. I have gotten into riding my bike. It's a cheap one from Walmart, not like my old bike. When I get home one of my tasks will be to ship that out here. It's been good exercise, the bike. I rode somewhere that wasn't work for the first time. It wasn't far, just 2 miles, but I felt like I accomplished something. I do feel compelled to mention that a lot of it was up hill �� I feel like its getting a little easier every day. Yesterday I rode to the library, which wasn't as far as I thought it was. There was a lot of up hill, because that's what you get when you live near the base of a mountain. I'll probably ly go to the library again tomorrow, because I have a slew of books to return and I plan to return them a few at a time, plus it adds about a mile more to my daily ride. I will probably try to pick up a book on bike maintenance. Today I bought some speakers so I can listen to my music without wandering around attached to an iPod/iPhone. Feels a bit more home now.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

I miss my tub....

In my old apartment, I would sometimes lounge in a tub of sumptuous bubbles and scented salts. I had a collection of my favorites, mostly EO, but some others as well. I love lavender, gardenia, citrus, there were so many. There was one bath salt that had actual tea leaves in it, had to be put in a bag to keep it tidy, but sometimes I would just let the leaves loose to float on top of the bubbles. Now I have a stingy shower stall. After a long day at work, there isn't a long relaxing bath to soothe away the aches of the day. No soft music, no scented candles, no relaxing salts, oils or bubbles. Just a shower. I miss my tub.

Friday, June 25, 2010

tgif!!!

About to start knitting for the night. Just need to find something to watch while I stitch.

Ate breakfast today, two large drinks (apple, pear, ginger, carrot, beet, spinach). Had my bean dish for lunch, with a very small spoon of pastitsio (gotta lay off that stuff, it was reeeeeeealy salty), steamed veggies and some kinda hard rice. And a vegan ginger cookie. The cookie was totally not worth the calories. Very disappointed. I had a vegan cupcake, too. THAT was totally worth the calories :-). Came home and had a largish salad. Not too bad a day food wise.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Vacation!!!!

My vacation request was approved!!!!! So, in August I will be heading down to The Big Easy to do my bit for the local economy (that's my story and I'm sticking with it). That week long trip will be followed by a trip to the eastern shore. We are going back to Jane's Island. Mosquitoes, a month of mosquitoes. I will be one giant bump, but loving getting that way.

By then I hope to have finished my tank top, and maybe the second top as well. Who knows.

The knitting is going slowly. Trying to get a bit in everyday, but other things just keep piling up. There is work (as always), the depression (as always), the insomnia (worse now), my cluttered space (always a problem, but it's making me crazier than ever lately). It's the same problem as before. I feel stuck.

The weight loss is stalled. I am stuck in the 184 - 191 area. That's much better than the 224 I started at, but not where I want to be. I am not going for what the Furhman team suggested (121) because I haven't weighed that little since high school (although I was awfully cute :-), but really want to lose another 40 and get down to 140. That's a comfy one for me. My blood pressure was at 117/75 today. Muuuuuch better. I stopped taking my meds about 2 months ago. I have been on the meds for about 4 years. When I started them my pressure was 160/120. I found out how bad it was when I bought a monitor. I had been having headaches for about 1 week or 2, and decided it was probably that, even though the websites said headaches were not a symptom. After the monitor arrived, I took my pressure (twice to be sure) and called my doctor. He told me to come in immediately to compare. When I got there he took his reading, found out that my monitor was correct and sent me off to the pharmacy, script in hand, with instructions to return in a week. I tried dieting, didn't work. Tried to exercise, got discouraged. It finally took a nearly vegan diet to make change happen.

But now, even with the progress, I am having difficulty sticking with it. I need to cook, I can't muster the energy to do it. I need to have snacks on hand, I don't remember to get them. I need to eat regularly, but I have slipped back into the habit of not eating when I should. and falling back on the sugar and starchy stuff. But I am soooooo tired of green salads. Lately I have also been experiencing severe cravings for salty stuff. I think this goes with the stress/depression/anxiety thing. When stuff gets too heavy and I want to hide, I head for the comfort foods. Haven't hit the ice cream yet (thank God!!!!) but I have had a few fries, some cake scraps (I DO work in a bakery after all), and I have upped the meat intake. And how can I forget the fried stuff. Gotta take that back down. Gotta get back to my one day per week of fish or chicken. 8oz per week. That's actually a fairly decent size piece of fish. No more fried fish off the hot bar. No more samosas off the hot bar. Actually, no more hot bar period. Do you know how much all that stuff costs?????!!!!! I did it for almost 6 months. I can keep it up.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

grandma

she is 91. she has lived a long and, I like to think, good life. she is currently hospitalized with failing kidneys and a failing heart. three of the four valves are not working properly. dialysis isn't possible because her heart is so weak. I don't want her to go, but I don't want her unhappy. I don't want her suffering. I hurt for my mom. in the last 10 years we have lost my dad, his mother, his sister, his aunt and my mother's brother. it's hard. I feel so incredibly sad. as I think about her, I think about my boss. his 33 year old wife is dying as well. their 4 year old will be without her mother. her grandchildren won't know her. I feel incredibly lucky that we have the time we do with Grandma B.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

better day

today, not as much sugar, but didn't eat breakfast. soooooo tired! going to bed early tonight! had two salads, much better. no fruit yet, but have plenty of oranges down here so I'll eat one of those before i go to bed. i did have a very large muffin, and a large multigrain roll today. oh, and a piece of salmon.
no knitting at all today. will make up for it tomorrow :-)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

SUGAR!!!!!!!

falling back into the sugar trap. had a macaroon, and two gf choc hazelnut bars today, as well as two really large veggie juices and a nice size salad. no bread today, which is good, but unfortunately too much sugar *sigh* i think i need to go back and re-read my book.
no knitting today, but i am thinking about these. I have all of this red lamb's pride worsted left over from various projects. I think red slippers will be awesome! I also have some black, but I think it's going to be red :-)