Friday, June 25, 2010
Ate breakfast today, two large drinks (apple, pear, ginger, carrot, beet, spinach). Had my bean dish for lunch, with a very small spoon of pastitsio (gotta lay off that stuff, it was reeeeeeealy salty), steamed veggies and some kinda hard rice. And a vegan ginger cookie. The cookie was totally not worth the calories. Very disappointed. I had a vegan cupcake, too. THAT was totally worth the calories :-). Came home and had a largish salad. Not too bad a day food wise.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
By then I hope to have finished my tank top, and maybe the second top as well. Who knows.
The knitting is going slowly. Trying to get a bit in everyday, but other things just keep piling up. There is work (as always), the depression (as always), the insomnia (worse now), my cluttered space (always a problem, but it's making me crazier than ever lately). It's the same problem as before. I feel stuck.
The weight loss is stalled. I am stuck in the 184 - 191 area. That's much better than the 224 I started at, but not where I want to be. I am not going for what the Furhman team suggested (121) because I haven't weighed that little since high school (although I was awfully cute :-), but really want to lose another 40 and get down to 140. That's a comfy one for me. My blood pressure was at 117/75 today. Muuuuuch better. I stopped taking my meds about 2 months ago. I have been on the meds for about 4 years. When I started them my pressure was 160/120. I found out how bad it was when I bought a monitor. I had been having headaches for about 1 week or 2, and decided it was probably that, even though the websites said headaches were not a symptom. After the monitor arrived, I took my pressure (twice to be sure) and called my doctor. He told me to come in immediately to compare. When I got there he took his reading, found out that my monitor was correct and sent me off to the pharmacy, script in hand, with instructions to return in a week. I tried dieting, didn't work. Tried to exercise, got discouraged. It finally took a nearly vegan diet to make change happen.
But now, even with the progress, I am having difficulty sticking with it. I need to cook, I can't muster the energy to do it. I need to have snacks on hand, I don't remember to get them. I need to eat regularly, but I have slipped back into the habit of not eating when I should. and falling back on the sugar and starchy stuff. But I am soooooo tired of green salads. Lately I have also been experiencing severe cravings for salty stuff. I think this goes with the stress/depression/anxiety thing. When stuff gets too heavy and I want to hide, I head for the comfort foods. Haven't hit the ice cream yet (thank God!!!!) but I have had a few fries, some cake scraps (I DO work in a bakery after all), and I have upped the meat intake. And how can I forget the fried stuff. Gotta take that back down. Gotta get back to my one day per week of fish or chicken. 8oz per week. That's actually a fairly decent size piece of fish. No more fried fish off the hot bar. No more samosas off the hot bar. Actually, no more hot bar period. Do you know how much all that stuff costs?????!!!!! I did it for almost 6 months. I can keep it up.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
no knitting at all today. will make up for it tomorrow :-)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
no knitting today, but i am thinking about these. I have all of this red lamb's pride worsted left over from various projects. I think red slippers will be awesome! I also have some black, but I think it's going to be red :-)
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I am not doing as well with the diet. I am not really into the nutritarian thing now. I haven't lost much, I am stressed, my hair is still falling out, and I am not losing weight. My knee is killing me. I need to keep wearing the brace and return to the ortho for follow-up. I missed my last two p.t. sessions.
Knitting isn't doing much better. I am down to the last repeat on Citron, and I think I will give it to my sister. I think I am kinda tired of it at this point. Nope, don't really like this shawl anymore. Lisa will like it, especially because it's purple. She loves purple.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
anyway, here i sit enjoying my compaq and loving it. probably didn't need to spend the money, but i wanted it, so there.
on the knitting front, i haven't finished anything lately. very dull. still working on the citron shawlette. it's very boring. like miles and miles of stockintte stitch. ewwwww! on little needles, double eeeewwwwwww! and it's too hot for angora!!!
next i think i will wander back to socks. instant gratification.
and i think i will try to finish my brioche tank. i am debating about that because i am now 40 lbs lighter than i was when i started it, so maybe i should frog and start again? in a smaller size? i know it's supposed to be loose, but there is loose and there is whoah!!!
on the eating front, yes, i am almost officially at -40 lbs. it's 39 as of this morning. i have had a few hiccups. there is the chocolate, and the fact that i am getting really tired of salads, and the fact that i am stressed about the moving thing, and the fact that i think my hair is falling out, and my lovely friends at the irs, and i have to rely on my sister and her husband for transportation, and just life in general. very stressed am i, but i'll live.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
now that I have broken down and seen a doctor about my knee, it hurts more. he said tendonitis and possibly something else (which hopefully will show up in the mri), so of course I looked up tendonitis. 3 weeks of rest and non-aggravating activities, which in this case is like, walking, standing and any variations of the two. i am not looking forward to telling my boss that. we already have two team members out with broken ankles (one per team member). oh, well.
the citron shawl is coming along nicely. the pattern is confusing and somehow i have two additional stitches. i don't know where they came from. annoying. i'm going to leave them in. can't hurt but so much :-)
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Well, I think I am feeling kinda anxious so this week I have returned to the things that make me feel better (well, they did in the past). My bro in law brought me some cookies from a co-worker of his who wants to see if we can sell the cookies in the store. I have eaten about 2 dozen chocolate chip cookies in 2 days. I don't feel so good. My diet has been primarily wheat free, dairy free, very low sugar and very low fat. In two days I have had lots of all of the above. My stomach feels grumbly,and I am feeling a little (pardon my bluntness) gassy. tomorrow it's back to my salads and I really need to get some exercise. Maybe I will start with some yoga *sigh*
I know I am anxious about having to move soon. I don't want to tell the kids because I think they may be sad. Actually, I'm kinda sad, but excited about it so I may be projecting. Went into Target today for storage boxes and just felt so excited about the prospect of shopping for a new space! Rugs! Towels! Kitchen stuff!!!!!! Just the prospect of eliminating the 3 hours of commuting everyday!!!! Really need to work on that. Being close to work will broaden my schedule availability. Less commuting means time to do things with friends. Being a bus or subway ride away from yarn shops!!!!! Like 4 of them!!!!! That makes me happy.
Oh, bought yarn and a book today. Want to do the Citron wrap from Winter Knitty '09. Found a lovely pale plum angora blend to use. Also bought The Enchanted Sole. Found a lot of really neat socks in there!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Well, I think it's time to revive the old blog. If only to remind myself of progress. And there has been progress. 33lbs of progress!!! That is my official total of pounds lost following the Eat to Live plan. The last few weeks have been hard, in part because I haven't been sticking to the "no food after 8pm" rule, but now I am back on track. Fixing lunches to save money ($12 to $17 per day on salads???? INSANE!!!!!) and control portion sizes and cravings. I will get back to cooking this week, too. Right now I am eating a salad with pomegranate vinaigrette. I had butternut and cauliflower chowder and a sandwich for lunch. The sandwich was arugula, cukes, roasted red pepper and a sort of edamame/mint/walnut pate all on ezekiel bread. Still debating about the pate, it seemed a little strange. The chowder didn't have the body of a more traditional chowder, seemed a little thin, but the flavor was better the second day.
On the knitting front, finished the socks for T. Finally! She chose the yarn, and the pattern. How could I say no? So now the socks can be handed off to Miss T when she comes home Friday afternoon. She doesn't seem to be adjusting to college life very well, but I guess it will take time.
I am making progress on the coworker's baby sweater. Glad I made the 6mo to 1 year size :-)
My next project will probably be the French Press Felted Slippers. I need something for cold tootsies. I have some lovely stuff in the stash that I can use (red, gold, or grey......hmmmmm.....). It should be a pretty quick knit.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
One of my favorite authors is gone. Robert Parker, the author of the Spenser series passed away yesterday. My mother got me hooked on his books. I have most of them, but hadn't read any in a few years. I guess it's time to go back and reconnect. It makes me sad to know there won't be anymore adventures for Spenser and Hawk. One of my favorite characters is now silent.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Well, I signed up for sp 15. It's been a while since I signed up for one of those. They were a lot of fun, though it seems like a smaller group than before. I imagine it was extremely difficult to handle so many folks with the large swaps. I like the fact that there is a dollar range now. Good idea. And the angel fee is a good idea too.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Actually, that's not true. I have been knitting a lot! have finished the Kai-Mei socks from CookieA, and am now starting on a 2nd pair for the daughter of the recipient of the 1st pair. No pics. Yes, I know you can't tell if I actually made them if you don't have pics to oooh (or ugh) over, but I'll do a pair comp shot when I finish the second pair. Trust me when I say the lacy bit on the foot is a beast, and worked best for me using 3 yo instead of 4 on row 6. It's really loose with 4. I think it looks neater with 3. Of course, that could just be the way I knit :-)
Still working on the Baby Reefer Jacket from Cotton Knits For All Seasons for a friend. Should be done by now, but I forgot how boring stockinette can be, especially if you are knitting something that's only 4 inches wide. It's like a super long swatch, I hate swatches. Need some cables or something to break up the monotony. Unfortunately that's not in the pattern, but if I had thought of it before.................................hmmmmm..................................there are more babies coming...................................but do I want to make them something, that's the question......................
On the Furhman front, I have now lost a total of 28lbs since October 17th '09. Very happy! To see that, just as i was bemoaning how tired i was getting of vegetables, and that i wanted a bacon cheeseburger. That gives me the resolve to stick with it, and maybe go through with phase 2 - actually hit Pacers and buy a new pair of running shoes. I want to start running again. I think I may have lost enough weight to not feel so bad when I do it this time. Gotta give that some thought. When I was running with Coach Carla, I got to the point where it was physically uncomfortable for me to run sometimes. I feel better now, so I may be ready. I think as a reward I may have to knit something for me! New sweater? New socks? What to do, what to do.